Tasha's Blog

Facts about me

1. My name is Natasha (duh)
2. I turned 15 on the 5th July
3. I am obviously a girl
4. I live in New Zealand
5. I am Cancer (star sign)
6. I go to the local high school
7. I wanna be a doctor when I grow up (maybe… I’m not too sure)
8. I have 4 best friends, Caitlin, Darshna and Heather. And Shawnee of course <3
9. But we fight a lot
10. I am terrified of hedgehogs. It is an extreme phobia. Not many people know that (yet you are half way across the world and you now know that… feel special)
11. I am the eldest of 3 siblings. Joshua, 11 and Samantha, 8.
12. I love fairytales.
13. I am a romantic (but aren’t most girls?)
14. I eat when I’m bored
15. I chew too much gum
16. My favourite gum is that new Pulse gum
17. I think I have insomnia
18. But I love sleep. Haha
19. I do pretty well in school
20. My best friend of almost 8 years, Stevee, just stopped talking to me one day because I was hanging out with Caitlin too much
21. I wouldn’t ever admit this to anyone but I kinda miss her.
22. My heart is very fragile. And it has been broken too many times
23. I’m still searching for the one that won’t break it
24. I have a lot of new crushes
25. But it’s only ever really been one boy that stole my heart (Troy…)
26. I love dancing, I love singing too, but I’m terrible at it.
27. My idol is Taylor Swift <3
28. I cannot stand people that make up stupid rumours
29. I also can’t stand people that say stuff about you as if you can’t hear them when you’re sitting right there
30. I have a pretty good memory
31. Lately I’ve been seeing the glass half empty
32. I love sneaking out. Adrenaline rush!
33. I’m not really a rebel. Just a teenager.
34. I want a job!
35. I used to be extremely naïve. I’m starting to learn the ways of the world.
36. I am a sarcastic person. The most sarcastic person you’ll ever meet probably.
37. I have a weird sense of humour
38. I really hate my school
39. Sometimes I really miss my younger days
40. I am not overly religious
41. My favourite colours are purple and yellow
42. I like listening to all types of music. But Taylor Swift mostly!
43. Taylor Swift is my idol. <3 I know I’ve already mentioned this…
44. Troy thinks she’s the hottest girl in the world.
45. He’s convinced she’ll make a sex tape with him.
46. He’s such a loser.
47. A cute loser though.
48. I hate wearing tight clothes, but I do anyway.
49. I love ice cream
50. I am about 150cm , maybe less, maybe more.
51. No idea what I weigh. I’m not anorexic or obese anyway. I’m average weight.
52. I love writing, but I don’t really write as much as I used to
53. I can sort of play flute. I can play guitar and recorder haha.
54. I have no idea who really likes me and who doesn’t
55. That’s coz most people at my school are two faced
56. I can be shy
57. I can also be outgoing, it depends on how I’m feeling
58. I hate girls that flirt with other girls boyfriends. It really annoys me
59. I’m a perfectionist, and it drives me crazy sometimes
60. I hate spending my own money
61. I like texting
62. I think about world ending in 2012 alot
63. I am scared of many things, but most people don’t know it because I act like I’m not afraid of anything.
64. I am not as motivitated in life as I used to be
65. I like playing poker. Especially strip poker with really hot people.
66. I don’t like relationships
67. Okay that’s a lie. I love relationships. But somehow my relationships always get screwed up.
68. I like playing tennis
69. I suffer from boredom 24-7
70. I say things like hehe, haha and lol in real life conversation sometimes. It is times like that that I have to convince myself to spend a little less time with technology
71. My life is boring
72. I like parties but I never go to them, coz I’m never allowed
73. I love the beach
74. I kinda wanna go bald
75. I want my tongue pierced. Everyone thinks I’m trying to copy off Te Riki but I’m not : ( Scratch that, no I don’t.
76. I haven’t cut my hair in ages
77. My hair is naturally blonde.
78. Some days it is straight, sometimes wavy and other days curly. I like variety
79. I want my drivers license
80. I’ll be a terrible driver
81. I dislike silence
82. I am a freak with spelling. Ask Heather, I am obsessive when it comes to spelling. I will (and have many times) correct a teacher if they spell something wrong. It’s okay with typing though, I always accidently type something like thsi. My fingers just slip and I end up typing like that. No excuses for bad spelling on paper though.
83. I HAVE to eat breakfast, otherwise my stomach will growl all day
84. I like going for walks down by the river
85. I can’t believe I’ve already got 79 facts
86. I lose EVERYTHING
87. I have really weird dreams. Cough, Tyson, Cough.
88. I like wearing mascara
89. I really hate talking on the phone. Especially when there’s nothing to talk about
90. I’m quite a fast typer
91. I hate being nervous
92. I tend to get nervous a lot, haha
93. I do well in school and stuff but I’m really dumb. Like blonde and ditzy.
94. I hate slow computers
95. I procrastinate often
96. I hate the mirror, not because I hate how I look but just because I hate looking at myself
97. I like playing car racing games on the play station
98. My life seems more interesting on here than it actually is… hmmm.
99. I love writing. Absolutely love it.
100. I am not coordinated in any way.
101. I am the clumsiest person I know. I trip over everything.
102. I draw when I’m bored. I suck at it though.
103. Damn. I had something to say here but I forgot what it was. My short term memory isn’t so good.
104. Whoa 100! I am proud of making it this far
105. Hmmm. I don’t like depressing songs. I listen to them all the time though.
106. Speaking of songs, the song sex on fire makes me really depressed. I think maybe this is because Brooke and Luke were hooking up all the way through this song at the ball, and I was jealous. Hah.
107. I am a jealous person.
108. I love spring.
109. I need alone time, or I’ll go crazy
110. I really don’t like mess, but my room is ALWAYS messy (not at the moment though…)
111. I hate uncomfortable situations
112. I hate people asking me out coz I never know if they’re being stupid or not. So I usually do the asking out (but um I never ask anyone out so yeah… that’s why I’m currently single)
113. I really want to kiss in the rain. But it hasn’t happened yet.
114. I hate favouritism. It seems to happen a lot though.
115. I like fruit yoghurts.
116. I like Drama.
117. Drama, P.E and Health are my favourite subjects. And they are my favourite subjects coz I never do work in them.
118. I dislike Math. Even though it is one of my best subjects. I just don’t like it. It’s too hard.
119. I like texting late at night
120. I like going for walks late at night, and going for runs early in the morning
121. I got this idea off a random on Myspace. Hmmm…
122. For some reason the more I do on this list the easier it is getting.
123. I wanna get married one day and have kids.
124. I can sort of speak Spanish.
125. Sometimes I just randomly start speaking it and all my friends are like what?
126. But most of the time I just say random numbers. Haha.
127. I love music.
128. I am not a very open person. I like to think I am but I’m not.
129. My nails are painted bright pink.
130. I like painting my nails.
131. My best features are my eyes and my eyelashes.
132. People always comment on the colour of my hair. Everyone thinks it’s dyed for some reason?
133. I am co-captain of the cheerleading squad. We are not skanky, we just have a lot of school spirit! GO TEAM!
134. Despite that, I am not very flexible.
135. My favourite chips are corn chips or salt and vinegar.
136. I get the worst PMS ever. I am in agony for two days before my period.
137. Some of this stuff is really personal.
138. But nobody reads this thing.
139. I wish somebody would read it.
140. Then maybe it would actually mean something.
141. I waste hours of my life writing something that never gets read.
142. I wonder if I can get to 200?
143. I’m really starting to struggle with this thing.
144. I like taking long showers.
145. I like taking pictures.
146. I wish I had more money.
147. I really wanna see Taylor Swift in concert.
148. Please come to N.Z Taylor?
149. That really wasn’t a fact about me. And neither is this… what a waste of a number.
150. I am so tired.
151. I’m always tired. I have insomnia!!!!!!
152. I really hope I’m not getting anaemic again.
153. I used to be anaemic. And I used to faint a lot and it really sucked.
154. I don’t know why I was. I love meat.
155. I tried going vegetarian. But it didn’t work out.
156. I can’t wait til the ball.
157. You must be mad if you don’t want to go to the ball.
158. I hope… Luke takes me to the ball.
159. I like the rain, it’s so romantic.
160. People always call me a skank.
161. I am one of the least skankiest girls I know.
162. I hate arguments, and I am very bad at having them (debates are different, I love having those!) I tend to laugh at the wrong moments.
163. I laugh a lot.
164. Argh I HATE that song my house. It sucks.
165. I get to sent to the withdrawl room too much. If you get sent there a certain amount of times you get suspended.
166. I have never been suspended.
167. I am house captain. One of the worst ones they’ve ever had. I get drunk all the time and get sent to the withdrawl room. That isn’t good.
168. I am possibly an alcoholic. Drunk times= fun times. I’m troubled… (haha Bart)
169. I love The Simpsons.
170. And Spongebob, OMG especially Spongebob. Heather and I fight over who loves it more. But I win. I know every word to every episode. I watch it over and over and over again.
171. I love my hairstraightner. It’s purple and it’s a GHD and I love it.
172. I am the worst procrastinator of all time. This list is just me procrastinating.
173. I am majorly insecure.
174. I used to read like 4 books a week and now I’d be lucky if I read 4 a year.
175. I always have competitions with Nauvoo. He’s like the smartest guy ever and he reads all the freaking time and he’s always real sarcastic and stuff towards me. And he always says I’m just a dumb blonde. So we have competitions as to who can do the best in tests and stuff.
176. He usually wins though.
177. I suck at tests.
178. But mwah-ha-ha-ha-ha I got the top English student of 2008! And he thought he was going to get it.
179. I hate prunes. Hate them. (they’re nice but…)
180. I like black undies, black bras and black singlets.
181. My first kiss was when I was 12 I think.
182. And it was with Michael.
183. I’ve kissed Michael like 5 times. But every time was like 6 months or a year apart. And I’ve never liked him, and he’s never liked me either.
184. I really wanna get my ears checked coz I can’t hear very well. But my Mum insists that I’ve got selective hearing.
185. Maybe she’s right.
186. Or maybe she just doesn’t want to pay the money.
187. My virginity? You were all thinking it, right? Well I’ve still got it. I’m one of the only ones out of all my friends that has it. I’ve had a couple of offers but I want to make sure the person and time is right.
188. I know who I’d be willing to give it up to though. Have a guess who it is? Starts with a T.
189. And nooooo! It isn’t Tamati.
190. Grrrr I hate Tamati.
191. Some of this shit is way too personal. Oh well. It’s just a blog. But then again, I bet a stalker could probably stalk me. I’ve got enough information on here….
192. Nobody knows my last name or town though so that’s okay
193. I am very open to lesbians. My best friend was a lesbian, and heck I’ve had a few lesbian experiences…
194. All when I was drunk however.
195. I’ve only been drunk like 6 times? Haha.
196. I am straight though. 120% straight.
197. If anybody I knew read this I would die.
198. Especially my parents…
199. I used to have a journal but I don’t know what happened to it?
200. I should really find it. It has some extremely, extremely personal stuff in there.
201. I really want some LJ friends. Maybe I’ll add some.
202. I hate listening to songs that I don’t really like over and over again. It just sucks.
203. Add my msn: trash_xx@hotmail.com
204. I’m not very interesting I know. But I’m done!

Hmm. Over by 4.

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THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
001. Natasha- by everyone
002. Tasha- By heaps of people
003. Nasha- Te Riki


THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
001. im-calecent
002. trashh_x (Myspace)
003. natasha__x0 (my Bebo)


THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
001. hair
002. eyelashes
003. eyes (are green) I love green eyes.


THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
001. white stomach
002. bum (too big)
003. fingers


THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
001. New Zealander
002. English
003. Irish


THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
001. Murderers
002. Stalkers
003. Stalkers that murder you

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
001. Sleep
002. Shower
003. Breathing


THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
001. Black jeans
002. Grey top
003. My new sexy undies. Haha


THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS [at the moment]:
001. Taylor Swift
002. Kesha
003. 3oh!3


THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS [at the moment]:
001. Should’ve Said No
002. Tick Tock
003. 22

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
001. Love
002. Humour
003. A good time

TWO TRUTHS & A LIE [in no particular order]:
001. I like Tyson
002. I dreamed about Tyson last night
003. I am jealous of Tysons girlfriend

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
001. Eyes
002. Funny
003. Sweet

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
001. Sleeping
002. Listening to music
003. Daydreaming

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
001. Go to Te Rikis party… maybe
002. Kiss Tyson.
003. Get drunk and kiss Tyson and blame my drunken state.

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
001. Doctor
002. Physcologist
003. Therapist



THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
001. Paris
002. Hawaii
003. London

THREE KID'S NAMES:
001. Jake
002. Melanie
003. Orlando


THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
001. Find love
002. Have a family
003. Be happy

THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
001. I hate bitchy people
002. I like guys jokes
003. I have no problem peeing in a bush (lol)

THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
001. I like pink
002. I am so romantic
003. My hair is long

Well I don't think I can anyway, I haven't exactly tried. Ir's nearly 2 o'clock but for some reason I'm really awake. It's this time of day that I can think best and it's so peaceful and calm that I don't want to ruin it by going to bed. Heather can't sleep either. She asked me who I liked just before and I didn't know who to say. I didn't want to say Troy coz I knew she'd give me a big long speech about him. So I said Tyson. And it isn't a total lie. I do like Tyson. I think he's really sweet and he's cute and funny and I like him alot. Maybe not enough to be in love with him or anywhere else close to it but sure, I like him. I have alot of dreams about him. I had one the other night where he invited me to this party but I was at mu school and I was with my old best friends and they wanted to be friends with me again but if I wanted to I had to stay there. So I had a choice, either go to the party and be with Tyson or stay and be friends again. And guess what I picked? Tyson.
My dreams about him are always really nice. And I always wake up feeling good. Not that I'm going to start liking Tyson like that. There's one huge problem. Look at his best friend... Tamati. He's so much nicer than Tamati though. I just know it.
Heather tried getting Tamati and I "together" tonight today but I told her that no way in hell was I kissing him let alone having sex with him. I couldn't think of a more torturous way to spend the night.

There's good music on the radio at this time for some reason. Which is weird coz there is never good music on during normal hours.

I'm starting to feel tired. I'm in bed with my laptop and I'm almost drifting off to sleep. It's a ood way to cure my insomnia though. I just stay up all night until finally I'm so tired that I have no choice but to fall asleep instantly. That's the good thing about the holidays. Unfortunetely I can't do that when ther's school.


I've been having rather intense dreams lately. Like really memorable and vivid. I think it's because I listen to the radio before I go to sleep and I fall asleep really thinking about stuff.

I don't have anything else to say really... I wish I did coz I wanna write but I don't.

I think Heather fell asleep, she hasn't text me back.
I'll write tomorrow.

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Well the holidays have began pretty well.
Saturday was really hot. I went down town with Heather and Darshna. We were quite bored so we decided to take off our clothes and jump in the river. It was a stupid idea and the water was rather cold but it was hilarious, all of us in a black bra and pink undies going for a swim in the middle of the day where everyone could see us. I was a little self conscious of my really white stomach but I got over that, Heather got over her “fat” stomach (she’s skinny!) and Darshna got over her “stretch marks” (yet again, she doesn’t have any) and we had heaps of fun.
At night I watched Marley and Me and then Date Movie, the went to my room and listened to the radio and tidied my room. I then felt like doing some exercise so I decided to do some sit ups. I did 50 and then I got a bit bored so I did some push ups.
I thought it was a rather productive day.

Sunday. Hmmm. Woke up at 1:30 (daylight savings and all). Felt properly refreshed for the first time in aaaages. Went to the park then cut across the bridge and went to the forrest. Brings back some good memories, I used to go there when I was younger with my Dad and brother. I went for a run past all the trees and stuff that’s in the way and it felt so weird coz I haven’t been there in ages.
At night I played spotlight and watched Blades of Glory and Final Destination 3.

 Well it's finally the holidays.

 was okay.
Other than totally bumming out on my Science test (definitely 70% or less) it was pretty good.
Darshna, Heather, Caitlin and I are speaking. Not best friends, but peers. It is sad. It's not my fault though. I haven't done anything. I was just trying to be a good person but as always it gets thrown back in my face.

We had the school talent quest at lunchtime. I was going to enter but I really have no real talents. It was rather entertaining, Justin my fellow male house captain sung and he was actually pretty good (and I realised pretty hot) and some others did some pretty impressive acts. I sat by Tys and he was being real friendly and wiping his face on me (or something, I don't know? He was all wet from the rain). What was funny is that his girlfriend was sitting right behind us.
Tyson used to be so nice and sweet but he's been hanging out with Tamati too much and he's starting to pick up bad habits like... oh I dunno, cheat on his girlfriend?

In other news Troy's friends reckon that he likes Rebecca. He hasn't said anything but Luke reckons he can tell by his body language. Hmmm.
I don't like Troy anyway. Okay, that's a lie I do.
But it's just so argh. No matter what I do he doesn't notice me. He noticed me last year, but now he just doesn't. We talk and stuff but only like friends. If I do my hair different or wear a little extra makeup every guy notices except him. He diesn't care does he?

I wish I didn't live here. When I go other places I've got high sex appeal, like the beach last weekend. I got hit on numerous times. Which is great buy why can't somebody like me in my own town?

Frick. I can't get sleeping pills til next term, coz she can only give out prescription drugs on Mondays and it's the last day of the term tomorrow.
Oh well, atleast I'll have holidays to cath up on sleep.

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Hmmm. I have a few.

Mr Froggatt (hah)- Year 7 teacher.
Taught me pretty much everything I know. People that weren't in his class critisized his teaching because he focused less on the boring facts and more on the things that would actually matter in later life. He had a way of making everybody listen without raising his voice too often. I learned so much in his class.

Mrs Brough- Year 4/5 teacher.
Understood my need for perfection. When I got things wrong instead of just saying "everyone makes mistakes" like all the rest of the teachers she helped me until I got it right.

Mrs Adams- Year 9 and 10 Maths.
Probably the best teacher I've ever had. Despite the fact that I've always done well in Maths I find it hard and confusing. If it wasn't for her teaching me I would fail every Maths assessment. She works individually with everyone and spends ages making sure everybody understands what they're doing. She has alot of passion for Math and she encourages her students to put passion into Math too. Everybody does really well in her class and the only reason that is is because she is a good teacher.
Even when I'm not in the mood for Maths I always walk out of that class feeling really inspired. And we learn soooo much. She pushes us (because we apparently have potential) and even though we're only year 10 we are learning the same stuff as her year 12 class.
I really hope I have her next year because if I do I will easily pass all my Math exams next year.


I'll write more later.

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 What type of day are you having?

 Today was okay. I've had better days but I've had worse too.
I didn't speak to Drashna or Heather all day. Which was rather sad because I missed them. But I wasn't in the mood for any stupid arguments.
They think that Caitlin made me choose her over them. That is ridiculous. I actualy didn't "choose" anybody. I just think it's incrediably mean to leave one person by themselves.

Tomorrow is winter sports day. Yay.


Troy was back at school :)
He was limping all day. I think his ankle was real sore.

I have so much to say tonight but I am so freaking tired.
I barely slept last night, or the night before.
I don't know why but I just cannot sleep.

I think I have insomnia.
The health nurse isn't gonna be at school to Friday.
Goddamit, I need sleeping pills.

:(

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